Where are you going? What are your plans? What are you going to do next?
These questions have been directed at me on a daily basis since I came back to Dallas in May. In the beginning I didn’t worry too much about it. I had a simple answer; I was completely broke and needed to make money. After a couple of months working two jobs and my bank account looking less dismal, I started thinking about what I wanted to do next and what were my goals. I began responding to these questions by going over all the possibilities and options I had.
Well, I found this job in Myanmar and I want to get my Teaching English as a Foreign Language certificate and I want to go back to South East Asia but my friend is trying to get me to go to South America although I would love to go back to Morocco and Italy or I could go to Australia on the way to South East Asia on the way to India and then swing by Europe when I run out of money again…..
These rants and uncertainties did not seem well received. So I took a breath and spoke the simple truth.
I don’t know.
Phew! That felt good!
I’ve had to remind myself yet again, to allow the unknown and unexpected to present what it will. It really is very simple. I’m working hard, doing what I have to do, to be able to have the freedom to do whatever I want to do! Even though there are a million things I want to do, I feel confident that whatever is supposed to happen will happen.
I have to remind myself all the time, that when I decided to go on the Trans-Siberian I had absolutely no clue the other adventures that would come from it. Nothing was ever planned more than a few days in advance.
This is my acceptance speech of my choice to live an extraordinary life. Where I allow myself to do what I want. I want to travel. I want to live in optimistic uncertainty about the future. I want to be of service to the world. Thank God for this clarity of some things I actually want! That alone is a blessing.
Can I achieve all these desires without putting in some hard work? Hell no! My time here in Dallas has been extended almost two months compared to the original 3 month plan (original PLAN…Ha!) Now that I have finally accepted my life choices and these aspirations, I can relax and be more present. I can enjoy my time here with the people I love and make the most out of Dallas because I know I will be leaving at some point in time.
Nope, I don’t know where…yet. Nope, I don’t know with who….yet. I sort of know when but there is no exact date. Aren’t you excited to find out? I am!
If there are still any questions, please refer to the quote at the top of this page on the right. That pretty much sums it all up for me.
Opportunities are already popping up. For example, I received a response from the International Buddhist Education Center in Sagaing, Myanmar (Burma) in regards to a teaching job. This is one of those chances I feel cannot be missed. The affirmations of this place seem to be endless. Beginning with the coincidence that the teacher who contacted me is named Kyaw Min, the same name of my dear friend on Koh Tao. Yes, yes maybe it’s a common name but of course I’m going to believe it’s a sign. Also, this picture gets me all excited inside….