“БЫТЬ В РУКАХ чьих-то” is a Russian idiom that literally translates, “be in the hands of someone.” I’ve been having some recent anxiety because in a way I feel in the hands of someone else. The Trans-Siberian adventure was not my idea. I am following the lead of another and that is something I am not used to. Throughout most of my travels I would be planning and going with my own spontaneity.
In working through this inexperienced situation of relying on someone else I have realized a few important facts of life. Well, at least in my life.
Trust. Not only trust in the people you surround yourself with whether on an adventure or in your daily life but trust in The Universe. Haha. Yes. I believe in that kind of thing. There is no way after all the incredible people, places, and things that have come into my life I could possibly ignore the idea of there being something out there that is watching out for me.
Let go. This takes constant practice! Having grown up in an Alcoholic Anonymous environment and visiting several meetings as a child the saying, “Let go, let God” has crept into my subconscious and has driven a lot of my adventurous spirit. As well as being a reminder during hard times that I do not have control over everything.
The Fun of the Unknown. Have you ever been afraid of not knowing what you were going to do or where you were going to go? Have you ever worried about where you would live or if you would like your new home? Have you been nervous before knowing if you would get that job you wanted or get into the school you had planned? Have you ever worried about the future? What if you could plan everything? What if you knew everything that was going to happen? Do you think life would be better? Sometimes the fear of the unknown surfaces and to feel better I ask myself, would I WANT to know? Would I want to know every outcome that results from my choices? Hell no!
Life is so fascinating because everyday we are presented with opportunities that show the numerous choices, decisions, and/or paths we must make. The outcome of these choices that we think we control is indeterminable.
Curiosity sparks the imagination and if I knew the result of every decision I made throughout my life I would feel unfulfilled. Serendipity, fate, spontaneity, these are all words and scenarios that exist in life. How much more powerful are they when they occur at unexpected times!
So today I’m going to think of these three things and remind myself that it is okay to be a little out of control.
Isn’t that part of the adventure?
“I hope for nothing. I fear for nothing. I am free.”
-Nikos Kazanzakis (Zorba The Greek)